Friday, October 30, 2009

Annoyed Wanting (Mysteries of Men Part 1)

I say 'part 1' because it'll take more than one part to try and understand the male mind. I don't think men--understand--the male mind. They tease and mock us for being irrational and emotional but they're just as irrational and instead of wanting to talk about their emotions, they're apathetic. Yes, we're emotional but that's only because someone has to be willing to put themselves out there for anything to happen. I've said it before and I'll say it again. Men and women are NOT the same species!
Okay, Orion is beautiful but in an abstract mental way instead of physical. AND COMPLETELY, HORRIBLY, ANNOYINGLY IMPOSSIBLE!!!! I want to know what he's thinking. I want to know why he can't, quite simply, tell me the truth. And most importantly I want to know why he can't admit his feelings to himself. Even other people have noticed that there is something there so why in every gods name can't HE admit it?
I hope that the day he realizes the truth isn't too late. That I've moved on to the point that all my dreams were for naught. And if it does come to that. . .I'll curse him to oblivion. And I'll do it with a smile.

Annoyed Wanting

Saturday, October 24, 2009


Everything feels bleh. I have a cold and I can't breathe out my nose, though I can smell incense, at least to an extent. Brutus is sound asleep on his bed next to me. I'm kinda envious, kinda not.
Why does cold medicine have to taste so god awful? I mean really. The medicine I mean is Zicam. It works fabulously but it tastes soooooo bad. It'll make me better faster but it makes me so nauseous in the process.
My family, probably like many others, always says medicine tastes bad to make the mind heal faster. Again I say bleh!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

People Killing People

In class today I said that 'war and terrorism is inevitable.' And sadly, it is. Humans are the only species in the world that kill one another for the pure fact of killing each other. One of my classmates stated that killers, in their warped minds, have a reason for why they did what they did. I never said that they don't. A killer that says it was because he was bored still killed just because he could.
There are many criticizing the new gun laws but here's the facts. Guns don't kill people. People kill people. Guns just make it easier. Humans have been killing each other since the time of Cain and Abel. That's not going to change. We'll just get more creative in how we do so like toothbrush shanks.
From now until we finally manage to kill everyone else we will keep killing one another. I've listened to people theorize how the world is going to end; I've heard natural disasters and the Book of Revelations but I always thought that would be humans destroying one another.
I miss the days when I was naive enough to believe that people are essentially good but they aren't. People hate people. People love their friends.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Love and Boys

Boys are annoying pains in the asses so why do we love them? I honestly can't answer that. My first love in a complete moron that I'm still waiting for him to realize he fell in love with me. Actually I'll be happy just knowing where I stand with him. He's a conundrum. A straight guy that won't stare down my shirt.
Yes I'm aware that sounds weird but at least then I'd know for sure that he's attracted. Well Isabelle says he's gay, like a good best friend. Riley says it's because he doesn't want to risk doing something he'll regret later.
I'm not a tactful or diplomatic person. I say things exactly as I see them and the whole reading between the lines is completely beyond me. Yea yea I know. It may make me seem a little slow but it's true.
TELL ME WHAT YOU MEAN!!!!!! I'm not a fucking mind reader!
My claddagh ring is worn on my right hand pointed outward even though he "captured" my heart ages ago. But I'm never going to fully admit that to him. ;)

Names were changed for their privacy and what's left of their sanity.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Scooby Doo!

Yes, I know I need to grow up but that doesn't stop me from enjoying the Scooby Doo marathon on Cartoon Network. So far I've seem ghost pirates, phantom viruses, and now vampire bands.
It's freezing cold so I'm snuggled up in my Tweety Bird pajamas. I really don't like cold. I really want hot chocolate. Hm...I wonder if there is any...

Honesty, Truthfulness, or Whatever You Want to Call It.

People lie. Sometimes it's to themselves, other times it's to the people around them. No one tells the complete truth, sometimes it is an outright lie but other times it is by omission.
So by the power vested in me by well me I vow to tell the complete truth or at least as much of it as I need to tell.